He Cares

Chilly blast of wind.  Words spoken that strike like flint across the corridors of my heart.  "Can we go and make an appointment?" Ok. What would Zane think? A call.  An answer.  Blocks driven, to that cold tan building down the street.  So many lives go in and out.  So many unchanged by the consequences they must face.  Crime...time...what?
My child of my heart the boy whom we let in just two weeks after our "I dos" wants to see his mom.  What does that mean? Mom.  My heart is winter today.  I can not keep him from her.  I can shield and protect and guard him but, not keep him.  But, me oh me what shall I do.  I shake. I tremble.  Is it to much?  Is this the bite that can not be chewed nor swallowed?  A jail visited.  A happy boy upon the idea of seeing his mom.  Me a newlywed, a fill in mom.  How can I make sense of it?  It does not make sense...and it may never.  So, as sad as it sounds today I am winter.  It seems safer somehow to be thus.  An excuse to stay in and sheltered from I guess my sadness-es.  Yet, not all of winter is cold and drear.  There are pleasantries such as kindness, laughter and friendship that give me a glimpse of Spring times bliss.  I must learn to treasure these glimpses. 

Jesus knows.  Jesus cares. 

Winter can be survived and Spring will come....

sometime soon...

I hope, I pray.

 

My Jesus is beside me.

He holds and guides me.

Through Winters grey;

Now and alway!

 

 

 

Nothing but trust is needed here He has already proven Himself over and over!